I love last days of a year. I love times of reflection. I reflect A LOT right here in this spot. Probably most because this spot itself is a physical representation to me of Faith and Blessing.
I love the time of pondering WHAT WAS before you can dream of WHAT WILL BE. I remember my hopes for this past year… I wrote about it in CAPACITY to CHANGE as I reflected on 2010 with hopes of what would come in 2011.
I wrote, “And 2011 – I can only dare to dream that this new grown capacity was given to us for a reason. 2011 I believe is going to be a year of lots of change for me and our family. I believe it will be good change and hard change. A change that I hope not only impact our family but will give us the opportunity to “lay all our cards on the table” and give all we have to a movement we believe in with all of our heart, soul, and spirit. A movement that has carried us for our past years in ministry and one that will continue to allow us to keep going after it. As you will often hear us say, “we have come to play and play to win.” I really believe it is possible to win. So much so, that I’ll give my life for it. And who wants to win alone? Not me. I’m so thankful for the people that are in our lives that are going after the same thing. Their wins become our wins and vice versa. It’s just an honor to be playing on the same team with everyone.”
In the midst of playing and winning you find battles of great Faith. 2011 will always be marked for me a sweet journey in my life. A time where Great Faith was required almost daily. I wish I could say it was really simple. But the honest look at it was that in moments of my biggest breakthroughs, there was much doubt that lead up to it. And in that struggle, and receiving a grace I did not deserve, I found something so profound for me personally. In the midst of all the mess that leads to Great Faith, I found the Father took and did what only He could do. He worked all things for HIS good and in return, giving me not what I deserved in my doubt but rewarding me with incredible blessing I’ve yet to be able to fully understand. And He did not do it only one time. This year he has done it time and time again. The only requirement from me that remained consistant in the process was that I had to step into the future without knowing it would work out. And in those steps of doubt, fear, excitement, joy… He always was Faithful, and always blessed in more ways than I could ever imagine.
2011 – The year of….. “Faith and Blessing.”
I will ponder that today. I will reflect on the journey He’s lead us on this past year. I will remember. And then as I sit tonight and ring in the new year, I will let all of that BE and will press into the NEW that is in store for 2012 and the DOING it will surely require.
2012. -The year of ……… will have to share more of that tomorrow.