Just had one of those days yesterday… the days where you sit down for that long conversation and ask your spouse or whoever… “Does what we do even matter?”
To be honest I’m sick of so many things right now…. and all the efforts of what we do with our lives each day at times seem wasted on a generation who does not care. I know that’s a big general and that some do care but overall that was what I was feeling yesterday. I sat in a room of college students yesterday as we attempted to engage them in a life conversation and I must say I left annoyed and disgusted at their visual lack of respect, distractions to ipods and other technical devises along with apathy. And you just kind of have that shut down moment of….. is this what we are giving our lives for?
It did not help that the night before Dave and I started watching the VMA’s and looked at eachother and said…”WOW is this what things have come to. ” Not sure if you tuned in or not. We try ane keep current with these types of things since the people we minister to …. well that is their world. But I must say both of us were perplexed as to what in the world is going on???
So I head out today to do my job and invest in the ministry we are called to and yet my heart is so disturbed. At the end of every day not just this season is always the gripping question at my heart and banner that I cry…. I don’t want to waste my life!!!! Some days I feel I am other days I don’t. I guess we all feel that way at times.
And in the midst of all of this Haiti. I’m sorry if you are sick of hearing Haiti from me but it has such a grip on my heart and I just don’t feel I can ever convey the deep need this country is in right now. If you have never visited any 3rd world country you may never understand… or maybe you can…. I don’t know. They are in desperate need of help. The Rescue Center I visited in May needs help. Can you give just a small token to help them get water for the day? If so see here and you can pay through pay pal.
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I told get what you are saying. We have been talking about this with a group of friend just this past weekend how terrible the apathy is. It in a lot of people who call themselves Christian as well and this is also where it hurts me terrible!
I for one am not sick of hearing about Haiti! I talk about it all the time so keep writing about it!!
I know you do not know who I am but I am a friend of Troy and Tara’s and have been to Haiti 3 times now and we are looking into starting up a training program in Haiti with them to train Native missionaries. My heart is just breaking for the Haitian people and the country.
Your pouring matters, we may not see how, but God is working in this generation. Be encouraged.
Praying for Haiti and feeling a bit helpless.
No matter what you perceive in others and how distracted they seem to be,; remember this, they are always listening . May the Lord through the power of the Holy Spirit bring you hope today, and contagious joy. God is in control!
It’s not just college students who act and react this way — adults are just as bad. Unfortunately, that’s the world we live in right now — wonder what it will take to get people’s attention? I remember after 911 God had people’s attention for about 2 weeks. Church attendance was hugely up and then——well, the usual set in and things went back to “normal”. Don’t be discouraged — even if ONE life is changed it’s worth it!
How is this for change? A baby boy who just last week had no hope of having having a loving home and parents has been picked by you and now EVERYTHING will change for him. God bless you, Kim – you make a huge difference. And you are only responsible for what you bring to the table – not for what others bring away from it!
Oh your words ring true for so many of us. The distractions of the world are endless but his love overcame it all!
I am sorry for your discouragment but it is time to pick up and dust off. One person in the crowd was listening, that one person will tell another and the word will be shared. If we could just see the harvest we would understand but while we are scattering seeds the enemy is trying to plant his own seeds of doubt.
I pray today is a new day for you, that you are fully refreshed and able to share with enthusiasm. Don’t let them steal your joy!
As for Haiti, oh my heart is ripping into a million pieces. We have 4 sets of birth families we pray for. I try to share news of Haiti with our children. Sometimes it is hard to know how much to share so instead we fall to our knees and pray for their safety and give thanks for their salvation.
Keep looking up!
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I can’t say enough for all the kind words. Just read over eveyone’s comments and just wiped tears from my eyes. Thanks for keeping up with me in my good days and my bad.